“Naomi, no touching.”
“Naomi, get to the back of the line.”
“Naomi, don’t smell her.”
“Naomi, be gentle.”
“Naomi, that’s not yours. Put it back.”
This is what I sound like at the playground. Ever jealous of the moms that get to bring a
book or connect with their adult friends during playground time, I am
consistently shadowing Naomi and nagging
at her. “No, stop it, don’t do that, wait your turn,” are the phrases that are
endlessly coming out of my mouth. I hate
it. Naomi hates it. But I haven’t figured out an acceptable
alternative.
I could just let her go ahead and touch, smell and pick up anything
that looks interesting, but that is sure to spell trouble. Kids end up saying something mean and/or
sniggering to one another. If other moms
and dads are around even they can get preachy. I’ve also seen her get pushed
and hit. I try to give her as much space
as I can, but I also make sure to ward off the conflict and I correct her
behavior when I see fit. I’m trying to
send the signal to everyone else there. ‘Yes,
I know what is going on; I’m handling this. You just carry on.’
Unfortunately, having her mom following her around and
correct her makes Naomi a bit of a target on the playground. When they hear me constantly saying “Naomi,
Naomi, Naomi,” they decide that she is a kid that needs to be bossed around and
willingly join in.
“Naomi, stop following me!”
“Naomi, move!”
“Naomi, don’t do that.”
Sometimes, they seem to think I’m their ally and I they
bring their complaints to me. I tend to disappoint them.
“She won’t give that to me.”
- Well dear, it’s hers and she doesn’t have to give it to you.
“She’s following me!”
- It’s a public place and she can
go wherever she likes.
“Can you get her to stop doing that?” No, I can’t and even if I could, I wouldn’t.
Inevitably, the questions come. “Why is she doing that?” / “What’s wrong with
her?” / “Why doesn’t she talk?” I wish I had a good answer. I wish I had a 30 second definition for autism
that a 6 year old could understand. I
wish I knew away to help them take it in so their reaction toward her were kind
and helpful. Of course, there’s also a
deep dark part of me that would find tremendous satisfaction in answering with
“None of your f%cking business!” But I know that is wrong.
So, park visits are tough.
They get Naomi the outside recreation that she needs and I want her to
have. They have also resulted in her having great proficiency at monkey
bars. Unfortunately, the playground
hasn’t given her a lot of social success. The playground is one of the most
intense reminders that the children’s social world really is a jungle.
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